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I can't sleep cause I've scared myself!

I hate writing but i had to do something xd:

I can't close my eyes cause i know they are watching my every move
I'm starting to see shadows that aren't really there
My heart is beating faster and i'm starting to sweat
My head has made my fear myself and everybody else
I feel pain everywhere and nowhere, i'm feeling tired and sick
I don't want to sleep cause i'm afraid i won't wake up
and if i do wake up will they every stop, haunting my life like a ghost that's lost
I don't have any tears cause they've gone with the years
I'm freaking myself out by thinking of all the bad stuff that could happen
I'm paranoid, looking around like i just robbed a bank
I can't go to sleep cause if i die i haven't accomplished anything in life
The room starts spinning and everything feel so empty, so cold
I don't feel safe in my room but safer than anywhere else
My hand is shaking while i'm trying to find something that can calm me down
I close my eyes and hope that i can open them tomorrow

lol... I can't sleep
-RunarM

Nice little poem!

I had that problem when I was 8-10 years old. I was really scared of ghosts but now I'm not lol.

I scared of American Idio* sweezing the heart in some of their songs and I`m so SCARED!!! cryer; cryer; cryer;

I quit update :p

Today i am feeling tired and sick of everything and everyone. It's the starting of school again. After 2 short weeks of doing nothing I have to come back to the school 5 times a week.
When the holiday started I was going to use my 2 short weeks nicely but when it ended i found out id just wasted them planning what I could and should do.

I'm feeling tired cause I didn't sleep. I was thinking about how many hours there was left till school started again.
Just lying in my bed staring at the darkness around me, thinking about how it will be to start at school in 2011. Will it be any different?

I'm also feeling a bit sad cause it's 2011 and it feels like 2010 just started, it went to fast. Time is going faster now that i'm getting older. It feels like many things are changing in my life, some for the better some for the worse.


That's my thought of today.
-RunarM